Today, on this beautiful date, 2nd February 2012, I'm officially turn 18. Well, according to the calendar of course. Weird enough for me at least. I don't feel anything special about it. Honest.
As the clock struck 12 last night, I was like "errrr.. that's it?" I guess I expecting a fairy or a genie to suddenly appear and grant three wishes to me... just in my dream.
But, of course a lot had happened for the past 18 years. Interesting though, I don't feel like celebrating. I'm not enjoyed myself indeed, turning 18. Nothing much has changed. Physically, hahaha. I might have gained some weight. Emotionally, nothing much.
Financially, well, I'm not working. Still depending on my parents. So yeah, I am still myself. The same old myself.
Looking back, I'm deeply ashamed of myself. **sigh** I ask myself after 18 years in this life, what I've did for my future life. It seems like zero, nothing much.
Well, I should have a new oppurtunity to change something in my life. Its must probably, change myself first. Lets pray my 18th year in this world will be full with wonderful colours of life, InsyaAllah. Amin.
p/s : dah lama tak menulis dalam bahasa Inggeris, nampaknya skil menulis dah semakin tumpul dari hari ke hari. demn!
